Hey you ! Welcome back 😃.. quick question, what kind of songs do you listen to ? Are you a shy Person ? Do you think you have no use on earth?
Hmm .. well keep those answers right in your head and at the end of this reading, compare and let me know what you feel in the comment section, will you ?😃
I present Ebunoluwa Adeyemo , popularly known as Regalo . A music producer , a mentor , a low key comedian and a friend to many . He’s been here before, however, this time around , he’s here with more wisdom for us . Let’s hear what this king has to say .
I believe that one of the most dangerous things that can happen to a child is that child not believing in his/herself. The truth is, a lot of people, especially children and teenagers are either currently struggling with self esteem issues or have struggled with it before. I too, once fought that battle.
Anyone who knew me as a child always saw me as a quiet, gentle person. I usually kept to myself a lot, so it was easy for them to think I was that kind of person. But I was actually very shy. Most people today see being shy as ‘cute’ but it’s the complete opposite. Shy people are usually people with low self-esteem, crippled by fear and paralyzed with anxiety. I don’t exactly remember how I became like that or what caused it, but I know it was one of the biggest battles I faced.
I had a very low self-esteem, with the idea that I wasn’t useful to anyone or anything. I carried this mindset for years and it began to shape me into the person I was. I remember there was a time it was so bad, I couldn’t talk to anyone in my age group while making eye contact. I would either look at the floor or look past the person I was talking to. If I ever looked at the person I was talking to in the eye (especially if it was a girl) words would fail me instantly. I’d just freeze with no idea of what to say. Because I felt like that, I created a fantasy world in my head where I was the main character, the hero; the one everyone couldn’t do without. I would escape into my fantasy world whenever I could because that was the only way I could feel good about myself.
I had slipped into depression without knowing. I was also very emotional so if someone said anything to me that was in the slightest bit insulting, it would pierce through my heart like a harpoon. I was held captive by depression for so long that the cell became comfortable for me. Sometimes, I saw myself as a humble person, with the idea that God made me that way. I started to create my own ideas about life and humanity around this lie. I became someone who needed other people to feel good about myself.
My life would have probably continued this way if I didn’t meet Pastor Essien. I remember the first time I had a long conversation with him, he tore down the decorations I had put in my cell and made me realise that I was drowning in low self-esteem and depression. He prayed for me and helped me see myself the way God sees me, teaching me about who the Bible says I am.
I started to confess my reality according to what the Bible says. I also started to remove from my life anything that could keep me from accepting this new reality. One of those things was the type of songs I listened to regularly. Slowly but eventually, I changed my playlist and that helped a great deal. Then I started to act like the person God created me to be; a human filled with his spirit, called out of darkness, made righteous and holy. I grasped the reality that I can’t be a christian and have low self-esteem, those two just don’t mix.
Eventually, I had no need for the fantasy world I carried around in my head for years. I accepted the reality of God’s love and acted accordingly. Most people I meet now usually get shocked when they hear about the kind of person I was and the things I did to get accepted by people. Who I am now and who I was are like 2 completely different people. I understand what it means to be accepted by God, I understand that depression and low self-esteem have no place in my life and I also understand that I have to show this truth to people who haven’t encountered it at all.
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Remember, you are loved !
Till next time , my good friend ❤
BOYE SHARON PAULINA
29TH MARCH, 2019